I wasn’t a huge fan of sir elton john, never have been and never will be. But needless to say it doesn’t change the fact that his a music genius and i have respected him for that. People could say all the bad stuff about the man for simply having an implacable temper or for having an armalite voice that can cut through your heart with no remorse whatsoever base on what i heard or what i read in the newspaper. I really don’t know him.I really don’t have the slightest idea about the man he was or the man that he is. All i know is he happen to sang one of my favorite song. The song “YOUR SONG” . If you must think about it. Its kinda goes down to the category of birthday song. I don’t know why but for some reason i think of it as a birthday song. There were alot of version of this song. First ofcourse is the original version by elton john. I must say not your favorite kind of voice but it weren’t that bad either.
Not that i don’t like his voice its more likely that its not my cup of tea. Frankly speaking his voice is better than fine but not that fine for my own ears. Well they say that the original version is much better than the revival but i must disagree on this one. I find the other version much amusing for my hearing. I say his ten times a better song writer than a singer. Ofcourse its just a matter of perspective not that i want you to agree with me. Why would i ever do that!
Then there is this version by ronan keating with elton john. Wasn’t that bad either but it kinda rough and that there is something about it that’s lacking. Somehow you don’t get the feel of it. What the song really trying to convey.
And then there it was the ewan mcgregor version and you now know in your heart everything seems perfect. Finally!!! everything seems crystal clear and you finally get to feel the true meaning of the word. Not that ewan mcgregor had a bed room voice that would swept you off your feet. Its nothing like that at all. Its the way on how he sings the song that made the difference. I don’t know maybe because his a much better actor or maybe its just the way it is. When you get down to it. Who cares??? all i know is i love ewan mcgregor version much better and you couldn’t do a single damn thing about it.
Suddenly i see myself walking towards the path of life called singleton. Its a very dangerous reality but needless to say definitely a nice astounding wake up call.Where did that those words came from?? I was never good in words. I must admit during my youth i had dreamt of becoming a poet but words were simply hard to came by with someone like me. I am a much better accountant than a poet and maybe a much better singer as well, says who?? well says myself!! hehehe… Im terrible with words. I often made a mistake and couldn’t distinguish the used of past and present tense. That’s probably the true reason why i stick my nose with numbers and became one of those old boring accountant because with poetry i simply doom to failed. That’s why im often admired DJ’s or anybody who works in advertising industry cause i know that they’re a much better speaker than me. I envy the fact that they perfected the craft that im so dumb of. Okay not really that dumb but not that pitch perfect either.I hate it that i can excel on something but not on other things like learning on how to play the guitar. Last year i enrolled my self on a guitar lesson. Its something i been so wanting to do but since i haven’t got the time of the day i put it on hold for quite sometime. But last summer last year i finally did it. At first i thought its really easy, a piece of cake only to realized it wasn’t.
All my life is changing everyday/ every possible way/and all my dreams/ is never quite as it seems/never quite as it seem/and then i open up and see/ the person falling here is me/a different way to be..
Then reality hit me just because i can easily perfected on something doesn”t mean the same goes with the others. Some people may have the skills but not me, never to me..You know what they say you simply couldn’t have the best of both worlds. Why am i making this??only god knows why or only my provebrial hearts knows why..
Phone and internet connection if finally back thank goodness. Checking my blog again…sighed…tapping ..tapping…mind wondering somewhere else for I don’t know how many gazillion minutes or so. For the past 4 days the house has no phone and internet connection to connect me to the outside world, no thanks for santi for that one. Since there is nothing to do and I’m not in a mood to go out and mingle or catch up with my reading or clean my stuff or even listen to my favorite brand of music. Yeah yeah I am that boring. So normal so predictable so plain and too good old boring..…I guess that’s what unmarried person usually do when they get tired of going out and hanging out with friends. They go home and shut themselves with the outside world and just be alone for awhile. I did what I used to do when I was still a teenager. When things aren’t that complicated. What I often do when I don’t have answers on something. I indulged myself with movies. I did a movie marathon and wasted a few hours of my precious time and bored my self to death with those sappy happy ever after scenes that only happen in movies which by the way is not good for my self esteem. I can’t believe I watched 5 movies in one sitting.
The Greatest Movies of All Time (The Classic)
As I watched Gone With The Wind last night and pictured myself as Scarlett O’Hara. Can it be possibly true that I would end up like her a self-centered woman who only cared nothing but herself and don’t know what a good thing is until it was too late and you feel sorry for her but you know that she truly deserved it or that Made of Honor movie where you’re afraid to take the next step cause you feel like you don’t have a slightest shot in the world. That no matter what, he would never be in love with you the way you did.
The way you wanted it to be or that movie You Got Mail where you never expected to find love in the most unexpected places. A stranger in your eyes that fallen out of the blue but not in your heart, never in your heart. That somehow finally you found your hearts missing puzzled. Just like the songs said you could have been anyone at all but I was so glad it was you, so damn glad it was you. How lucky could you get!. Or that Casablanca movie where love isn’t the problem but the situation is or technically speaking the timing is. The right love at the wrong time. A parallel line that would never intertwined no matter what. And you’re smart enough not to wish for something that could never be but maybe somewhere in another lifetime but not on this one never in this one. And the only good thing that came out of it is that your love would always be there to last a lifetime. Not sensible but it does happen. Or that wonderful classic movie and I say its one of my favorite of all time, Sleepless in Seattle once beaten twice shy and afraid to try again cause you’re been in love with the dream that’s long been gone and couldn’t distinguish the difference between dreams and reality.
One of The Best Love Story Every Written
(destiny find its way)
Somehow destiny would play tricks on you and for the first time in your life you don’t know what to do. And the worst insanely but incredible sensible thing you ever did is you tried again because you could no longer control what you truly feel. What your hearts truly feel cause it’s much stronger than life it self. You put up with it not because you’re already tired of being alone but because you finally realized that there is nothing wrong of being happy. That there’s more to life than being in love with the dead person and that if don’t do it, if you don’t even try you know in your heart that you would regret it for the rest of your life. Like a force of nature some things are simply meant to be and you can’t help but fall in love and you know that it would be forever. For the second time love knocks at your heart and swept you off your feet and you’re too smart enough not to stop it from happening. Funny thing is how you compare yourself over some sappy movies. You found the perfect guy but the sad truth is that his not the perfect guy for you. You see the sign but it’s not for you to enter with. Am I making any sense? Probably not! Whatever the ending will be regret should be the last thing on your mind. You made your choice now stick with it or what the others usually say you made your bed now lie on it. Not everything is a bed of roses. Sometimes okay Its not sometimes probably always, I’m too good for my own peace of mind and i say too much..
All of a sudden im inspired.What is it with this song that i find my self updating my lousy blog hehehe…Okay aside from its one of my favorite song.I always feel happy and content and somewhat serene everytime i hear this song.It inspired my soul and it gives me hope in some bizarre strangest way that everything will turn out fine in the end. Well alright its just not the song that inspired me lately.Its far better than that.Its that point in time that im finally getting acquainted with people that used to matter in my life. People that i used to cared about. People that used to know the deepness of my soul. People that used to be there but for some strange reason our path got lost along the way and now trying to rekindle the old friendship again..Yeah now im old enough to know what is right and what is it that would really make me happy and grab on to that happiness. Once used to be a child who doesn’t care not a single thing in a world is now finally an adult a lady with hope and aspiration to do what she think is best and would make her happy. If being single is her true destination in life so be it but if in some strange way the universe would finally look her way and suddenly find her self in the path of blessed married life..She will be more than happy to take it..As we face the uncertainty in life we face everything that’s on it..The good the bad the ugliness of it all and most of all the getting your heart heartbroken and fixing it to get back on the track. But one thing would always and forever be remain the same. You’ll always be child at heart with a wish of happy ever after just like in all fairy tales… :)
Woke up with one of strangest bizarre weirdest dream..I haven’t had a dream in awhile and i must say this one is one of the weirdest.First it did really woke me up and second of all the scene were all vivid its like watching a movie, some deja vu..I don’t often remember my dream but this one for some strange reason i did. Thank goodness its just a dream and not some nightmare. Since its just simple dream and not some nightmare i guess its okay to talk about it..The dream start with delle sleeping over in our old house..how weird is that??? and it was in our old house.. and then i see my self having a conversation with my older sister and one of my older brother over some piece of chocolate doughnut..im not sure what were talking about but our lips are moving so to speak but for some reason i couldn’t pick up the words.When all of a sudden the demanding queen arrived with some groceries on her hand at the same time delle walk right infront of us with a pillow at hand.Then the weirdest thing happen and this one i distinctly remember.The demanding queen asked me Ilan silang magkakapatid? and i remember saying 6 and asking her WHY?????why does she want to know and instead of answering my question she just simply said bigay mo sa kanya ito ah went to pick up something and then i woke up not knowing want she wanted to give delle…How bizarre is that??First of all why do i dream of delle and the weird part is why do i dream of someone that isn’t part of a family and its not like we known each other on a personal level cause we don’t..Second why is that everytime i had some dream its always in our old house.What’s in our old house that its keep coming on my dream..is it some way of dad telling me that i forgotten about him cause it didn’t happen not for a single moment..or i simply missing something here that’s already right infront of my eyes.WHAT????great cosmic universe if ever you are listening do tell me,whats in our old house that often pop up in my dream??? Lastly WHY and WHAT is it that the demanding queen wanted to give delle..Why would she give someone something when she don”t even know her.and why would she bothered asking those question.why does she care?guess i would never know..guess its nothing..it entails nothing.zero significance..
The first thing that pop up into mind the moment i woke up..Dont dream its over and its not even my favorite song..How weird i could get.weird dream with a weird song..some weird morning it is..
I been checking the rushers forum and i found out some quite interesting stuff and it hit me. I really don’t know or doesn’t have a single idea what my real name means. All i know is that its one of the random name the demanding queen picked up when she was giving birth to me. My name starts with the J cause all of my older siblings also start with the letter J and the demanding queen was very fond with the letter J so that goes with the technicalities why my name start with the J. And since im the youngest child i can’t agrue with the tradition. If the first born’s name start with the letter J then by all means the youngest child’s name should also start with the letter J.And since there’s a certain rule in my demanding queen’s lineage about naming the child. If your first born name start with the letter W or E or J then all your childs name should start with the same letter as your first born. I have two tita on the demanding queen’s side. My first tita she named all her children that starts with the letter W- William,Wilfreda & Wilma (the twin), Wilmarie, Wilson, and the youngest Wences, actually all in all they’re 8 but i forgot the name of the 2 others. Talked about being first cousins and all hehehe..My second tita who also named all her children that start with the letter E-Egleser geez i forgot all their given name except their pet names and the fact that my second tita also have twins and besides all their names were difficult to memorize. But not all fall into places like the demanding queen wasn’t lucky enough to bear any twins unlike her two other sisters. So what my real name actually means. I search the world wide web cause im that curious what entails my name then i found out its origin is from a CORNISH form of WELSH name “GWENHWYFAR” GWEN- means “FAIR, WHITE” and HWYFAR-means “SMOOTH”. In arthurian legend she was the beautiful wife of KING ARTHUR who engaged in adulterous affair with Sir Lancelot. Her betrayal of her husband with Mordred prompted the battle of Camlann, which led to the deaths of both Mordred and Arthur. So technically speaking my name might come from one of the folk goddess..Then i search some more then i found out this about my name.
You Are Level-Headed and Trustworthy
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed… even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.
You are able to be a foundation for other people… but you still know how to have fun.
Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You’re always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can’t handle you. You’re very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you’re likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
I must say it perfectly described me. What a simple name could really made a difference. True to form im very intense and difficult to handle. Always ruled by my feelings and more often than not weigh down by my own emotions. So i guess that’s what denotes the name..
In just a couple of minutes, exactly at the stroke of might i’ll be officially a year older and hopefully also a year wiser hehe..It’s not often a lady turns 30 and still unmarried but seriously im not complaining. If you ask me right now what i been missing at this moment. I would definitely say NOT A SINGLE THING!!!!!.Im content, im happy.I have everything i could possibly ever need.An exceptionally great friends with a very supportive and loving family and a lucrative career plus of course most of my officemate are my kumare and kumpare so tell me what more do i need.Tonight was like no other night. Tonight i feel so special and shocked beyond words.Really it did touched my heart.Tonight i asked all the people that matters to me to come and celebrate this wonderful occasion in my 30 years of blessed life to share a dinner with just a couple of people. I wasn’t really expecting it that they would really go out of their way to make it happen. Its was really something. Even the gesture were truly unbelievable. I wasn’t really expecting it at all or maybe at the back of my head i am but needless to say you guys were the sole reason why it did turned out extra special tonight. I know how busy you guys are and how important family life is but tonight it just didn’t showed. But what really touched me was that i know for the fact that some of you guys no longer drink or nolonger bother to take liqour on your system but just for tonight and just because it is my birthday you guys endure a couple of bottle so that i feel in the tagalog “para lang di mapahiya” and i mean i didn’t even bothered to coerce you guys into drinking it but you guys actually drunk all of it without raising an eye brow.It really touched me.It just show how important i am to all of you guys and that maybe i am really special hehe…No words can express how thankful i am.You guys really made my 30th birthday extra special and i don’t know how to thank all of you and even though we celebrated it a day advance..From the bottom of my heart THANK THANK THANK YOU GUYS!!!!! mwah……..
” You can make a change.Well we all could.That’s if you really give a damn”
Its been a wonderful week so far. Nothing seriously major happen. No life threaten event or any of that matter. In fact its been an exultant week. With everyone you love and value the most were all safe and in good health. You’re just plain happy. Nothing else matter than this moment in your life. Selfish as it may seems but you just seize the moment and absorb this wonderful feeling wishing it would last forever. Doesn’t care in the world if your not rich as a midas or doesn’t have enough money in your bank account to renovate your old parents house or didn’t have enough spare change to give to those unlucky people on a dangerous busy roads begging for some spare change. Sadden with the realization that your helpless to help them. That you live in a place where corruption is already an everyday life, a survival thing in the human race. And even if were the leading catholic country in asia or the only catholic country in asia still it didn’t change the fact that were also the most corrupt country while indonesia on the other hand weren’t far behind. No matter how much you love your country changing it wouldn’t happen overnight. Not when you don’t have the power or the voice to make it happen. I once read on a book that said “A CAR WITH OUT ANY DENTS IS LIKE A FACE WITHOUT ANY LAUGH LINE” or “A COUNTRY WHO DIDN’T GONE TO ANY WAR IS A COUNTRY WITHOUT ANY HISTORY” according to somebody. But what struck me the most is the sentiment in one of Michael Jackson’s song. “IF YOU WANNA MAKE A WORLD A BETTER PLACE TAKE A LOOK AT YOURSELF AND THEN MAKE A CHANGE” well said. You don’t need to go too far to make a change. All you need is face the mirror and then start from there. If the change doesn’t start from you then where? or rather WHO? Granted its true that we can’t change a single country overnight and that goes the saying that “ROME WASN’T BUILD IN A DAY” but you gotta start somewhere if want some change. What the heck is wrong with me? I suddenly became patriotic hehe.. One thing is more clearer than any piece of diamond this world has ever have. You don’t need to be somebody to make a statement.Sometimes a simple act of compassion is enough to make this place a better place not for everyone or for the world to see but perhaps for someone who needs it more than you ever know. Wow it just struck me.I did have a heart after all to make me feel this way towards our country’s current situation. All it take is it start with one self and then maybe the rest would all follow.
Deeply moved by kris confession on the last few moment on the life of one of the greatest leader of democracy this nation has ever had. The love of a mother to her children and the love of a daughter and son to his/her mom. Watching her felt like reliving the not so distant past that i already buried gazillion years ago.Yikes..no need reliving those moment.Its one of those life moments that god throws on us and were not in any position to stop it from happening.Enough of that! On days like this there’s nothing i want more than just cuddle on my bed and practically do nothing and ofcourse with my favorite brand of music on the side. In just barely 2 months and i will be officially a decade older that is if hell would freeze over and stop that from happening which i surely doubt would happen any time soon hehe…Fate wasn’t that cruel. Time flies when your having fun, for some i guess. No need to be nega today.
Sometimes the best that you could ever do is “LET IT BE”
God is been good with me, with our family lately or at least kind though i don’ t think i even deserved his kindness. But needless to say i am grateful. Lightning doesn’t strike twice on the same place and definitely not on the same person. Past is past and now is now and tomorrow is just a distance future that you couldn’t avoid from coming. What matter is today and what you want to do about it. Growing up and all i ever did was being a self-centered biatch. But i think i finally learning to be that person i should be gazillion years ago. Took me forever to get there and kinda stupid on my part hehehe…but hey at least now im getting there, somehow someway. Sometimes we wandered and got lost along the way but it doesn’t mean we wouldn’t find our way back home. A kind of person that my parents would surely be proud of not that they weren’t proud of me today of course they are. What i mean is even way prouder than they are right now on what i become. Life would teached you a lesson and its up to you whether to accept and learn something from it or not or saw it as a hindrance and would never acknowledge or do something about it. The greatest battle a person could ever fought with is not by emerging victoriously but by learning to stand again with your heart on the right place after losing. Tragedy make us humble and pain put empathy to one’s heart.
The truth of the matter is i have no idea even a slightest one who the heck are this girl group called the “Wonder Girls”. But ever since i heard their song in rx 2 days ago i got so curious and next thing i know i was singing to the song “NOBODY” . Its now my current lss (last song syndrome). Since this song got me so curious enough i decided to do a little research about this girl group called the wonder girls and true enough i found quite a lot. They’re actually south korean girl group composed of 5 members whom were all selected through audition. Wonder Girl is the name of three fictional characters featured as superheroes in the comic books and other media produced by DC Comics. The original was a younger version of Wonder Woman. The second and third are protégés of Wonder Woman, and members of different incarnations of the Teen Titans but technically speaking that is not where they got their name at least not that im sure of.
They have scored three consecutive #1 hit singles: “Tell Me”, “So Hot“, and “Nobody“.In 2008, they won two Daesangs (“Artist of the Year” Awards).
As a group, the Wonder Girls were introduced through the program called MTV Wonder Girls which was filmed and directed by MTV. The first four episodes outlined the characteristics and profiles of each member and showcased their schedules for the day. Not long after selecting Ye Eun as the fifth member, the Wonder Girls had their showcase in the MTV Studio. In the showcase, they performed a cover of “Don’t Cha” by the Pussycat Dolls and their own songs, such as “Irony” and “A Sorry Heart”. Sun Ye did the solo by singing Destiny’s Child’s “Stand Up for Love” while Hyun-a showed off her dancing skills with a solo dance. The other three members — Ye Eun, Sun Mi and So Hee — performed a cover of Janet Jackson’s “Together Again“.
Wonder Girls performing “Nobody” at the 2008 BICHE opening ceremony in October.The full music video for “Nobody” was released in the early autumn of 2008, and the single was digitally released at the same time. They performed the following weekend on Music Core, Music Bank, and Inkigayo. The song went to #1 on KBS‘ Music Bank, staying there for four consecutive weeks, and also won Cyworld’s “Song of the Month” award in September and October 2008. Like “Tell Me”, “Nobody” also sparked a dance craze.
At the 2008 MNet KM Music Festival Awards, the Wonder Girls won three awards, including “Song of the Year” and “Best Music Video” for “Nobody”, and “Best Female Group”. The group also won an award at the 2008 Golden Disk Awards for high digital sales. At the 18th Seoul Music Awards, the Wonder Girls won the Daesang (“Artist of the Year” award) for “Nobody”, along two other awards.
NOBODY – ENGLISH VERSION
“FROM NOBODY TO SOMEBODY”
Wonder Girls started their official MySpace Music account. The page confirmed that the group would launch in the United States with the official release of an English version of “Nobody” sometime this summer.The Wonder Girls released an English version of their single “Nobody” on June 26, 2009.A former member, Hyun-a, left shortly before the release of “Tell Me” due to health complications.
"kim yubin"
Birth name: Kim Yubin (Hangul: 김유빈; Hanja: 金瑜斌)
Date of birth: October 4, 1988 (1988-10-04) (age 20)
Made a cameo in 2PM’s 10 Points out of 10 music video and in MBC’s sitcom, ‘That Person Is Coming’.
Featured in Chun G’s song ‘Weak Man’ and Kim Bum Soo’s song, ‘Do You Know That’.
Also featured on Andy’s first album.Wrote the rap for her part in Kim Bum Soo’s song.
Another famous rx dj duo is making tidal wave on the airwaves. The classic fizzy girl next door “Christi Anne” and the wacky but lovable strange looking guy “Louie D” (hehehe… ). Besides Chix and Delle i would only listened to four other rx dj, Gelli and Jude and ofcourse Christi Anne and Papa Louie D. Strangely enough i’ve been searching the www for pictures of these famous duo but i cound’t find any. How is that possible? hmm… I know how they looked like but still it would be great to have a photo of these guys posted and put justice on the famous name. Thanks to their friendster account and facebook i was able to put a photo of these duo. Thanks guys for allowing me to grab it even without your permission
"The Next Best Thing That Hit The Airwaves"
I must say their on air tandem were so different from chico and delle. Christi anne is exceeding with exuberance that would make you think is this girl crazy or what. Always have this high pitch voice that makes you think is it the end of the world already? hehe…. while Louie on the other hand is ever so wacky but lovable in his own way and would always gave in to christi’s blah blah blah…hehehe . I have no intention of belittling Christi Anne and Louie D but if ever there is the next best thing that could ever replace Chico and Delle in my heart whenever it comes to this dj thing it would definitely Louie and Christi. I was first been a “RUSHER” before becoming a“SURVEYVOR” sorry guys im loyal that way hehehe… Always will and forever will be a ”RUSHER” until C and D decide to call it quits on air which i hope would never happen.I know some people wouldn’t like to be compared with others but sometimes the next best thing isn’t so bad. So you see not only now that im a huge The Morning Rush Fanatic im now also a certified The Daily SurveyFanatic. Words weren’t enough to express my gratitude on these two famous DJ. Ever so nice. Knows the right words to say so they wouldn’t offend their listeners or if ever they did they would always know the right word to say to make it right. They would always crack me up with their “CORNY CORNER” segment which im always looking forward to every wednesday afternoon. Jeez! from Sex Bomb Girls “Spaghetti” to April Boy’s “Di ko kayang tanggapin”.
“‘DI KO KAYANG TANGGAPIN-MAALA APRIL BOY REGINO”
“SPAGHETTI”
They would always surprise their listeners with some weird song that you find so yucky but for one moment in your life you actually sang to those peculiar song whether you openly admit it or not hehe…Propbably were just too ashamed to admit that we once sang our heart in those songs that now we find so baduy,corny, odd, peculiar or yucky but that’s why its called “CORNY CORNER” cause its corny that way.Wouldn’t be called “CORNY CORNER” for nothing. That’s how my day practically works. It would start with the morning rush and ends with the daily survey. How i would love to meet those famous duo who never failed to brighten my afternoon the same way chico and delle always brighten my morning for the past 12 years and still counting.
I told my self that i wouldn’t write or blog this thing. Its one of those moments in my life that i would never ever forget till the day i die. Weird somehow i just couldn’t sleep. How is that possible that im having a hard time sleeping when in fact i have been deprived of sleep for the past couple of weeks. Okay guess im just a little bit worried because i wasn’t on her side. But i know that she’s already okay and definitely in capable hands of kuya. In fact she’s back on her old self. She talk non-stop and her mouth is again like an armalite. Its been an emotional roller coaster ride for the past couple of weeks with our family. No idea how we survived it but apparently we all did. What i went through last year was nothing compared to what we all went through this past couple of weeks. There’s nothing that could ever measure the pain, the stress, the hatred and most of all the emotional torture we all felt during those times. It felt like going back and forth through hell and how much you wish to god you don’t experience that same feeling again. I can stand a physical torture but an emotional torture not just for someone you love but especially for yourself. It’s something that each and everyone of us doesn’t want to experience in this life time. You probably wouldn’t experience those feeling if you’re born with luck. But if it concern someone you love the most there’s nothing in this world that you wouldn’t do and would rather be than be on the side of that special someone. To share their pain and how you wish to god on every single moment of your life that it was you instead of that someone. That if there’s away to take away the pain? you would gladly take it cause you couldn’t stand seeing that person suffering. Every shed of tears, every needle that touch her skin, every blood they take on her body. Its heartbreaking. To be their strength to continue to keep on fighting the battle and to go on living even if all the odds were against them. And the only thing that keeps you sane and keep moving on is the tiny thread of HOPE that everything will turn out fine.You can’t defy fate but it doesn’t mean that you give up on HOPE. You don’t give up just because the odds were agaisnt you. You just don’t give up easily on someone. No matter how uncertain it is. No matter how life shattering and heartbreaking it is. No matter how hopeless it is. No matter how impossible it is. You simply just don’t give up on someone you love. Its not a coward thing to do. Its as simple as loving someone with all of you, with everything you got and you’re willing to do the impossible. Just because you couldn’t let go doesn’t mean you’re a coward. You simply love that person too much to not give up easily. I still think that i’m lucky or rather blessed. God was so kind enough to give me a another chance. I know this time that i’ll make it right.
I’m ashamed to admit it but i never really like david cook. But that was before i knew the man behind the voice. The kind of guy that he was and still is before winning the coveted American Idol. You can say im actually biased coz how could i easily judged somebody when in fact i don’t even watch american idol. I would only watch it once in a blue moon and that is while im waiting for the start of smallville at the other local channel. I don’t know why but i used to find him pompous. The kind of man that definitely wouldn’t bow or kneel to just anybody just because that person said so. He has this look that would make you think, yeah his definitely somebody! and quite frankly something that you would admired on the person. I hate to admit it that but now he become somebody that i hate to like. YES! im now officially ”cookiefied” hehehe..if ever there’s such a word for it. First it was that song “Come Back To Me” that touch my nerve or rather my soul. I didn’t dream that the time will come that i would actually like a song that was sang by cook.
COME BACK TO ME
I’ll let you go / I’ll set you free / And when you see
what you need to see/when you find you/ come back to me
I can’t fix you/ I can’t save you/It something you have to do
The first time i heard this song believe it or not i was at the hospital waiting patiently for some test result and keep hearing that song every single day that i was there. The first time i heard the song i said to myself is that who i think it is. The guy i used to disliked. The famous cook who has a distingue voice that wouldn’t have mistaken it for anybody else. Now im definitely “Cookiefied”. I must say hearing him singing this song i actually could feel his pain. I know what his going or gone through. I experience that kind of pain when someone i love the most was in the ICU for the longest time. It was pure hell. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t work. I was immovable for sometime. Like my world stop for a moment and my heart was bleeding tremendously and there’s nothing i could ever do but accept the fact that someone i love was fighting for her dear life and i need to be brave. But there i was crying at the hospital cr of her room and couldn’t accept the fact that i might lose her forever. Atleast now its all in the past. A nightmare that i had no plan of revisiting anytime soon ..
PERMANENT
forgive my broken promises that you’ll never see me cry
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