omega-alpha ending the past, beginning the future

2009 a distant past (that’s all it is)…

jen aka gorgeous b. — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 07:55:32 +0000

CLOSURE…how time flies so fast..I can’t believe that a decade had already past.In just a couple hours 2009 will finally be over. A year that i must say had a lot of highs and lows. A year that you would gladly put in the past after all that’s were they should stay in the past. A decade were you gain some and lose quite alot. A decade that made you grown up fast. A decade that made you decide where you want to go in life. You got to admit this decade was never been easy from the start. A decade that made you question about life, about god, your faith, your sanity, your whole being. Saying goodbye wasn’t quite that easy but sometimes you really don’t have the choice on the matter. You have to in order for you to move on. Just like change goodbye is inevitable. I must say you really changed quite a lot in those years that past.

Your mind may never understand it but your heart does. You been sleepwalking through life for so long but know its time to move on. You said it yourself learn from the past live for today and hope for the future and hope that future is far better than the past.

Defying Gravity(its never too late to follow your dream)

Maybe you made a lot of mistakes in the past which is quite more than you hope for but that doesn’t make you less of a person. Maybe your pain is much deeper than the rest but hey you came out pretty all right.You absolutely did it!!!! What you are right now and what you will become someday, there’s no one to thank for but yourself a fter all it is you yes yourself that has been your number one fan all along. You inspired yourself not just to do good but far better than good. As you say goodbye to the old you and saying hello to the brandnew you. Actually your just saying hello to the far better old you. So to the brandnew old you A PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR and i hope you get want you been wishing for.What we all been wishing for. Your own piece of heaven here on earth!!!!

Tagged: closure, defying gravity, glee

Try Again…

jen aka gorgeous b. — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 09:38:44 +0000

You already taken the first step. The next shouldn’t be that hard after all. Don’t you dare doubt your abilities. Don’t you dare back out on me now. Its not your thing. You weren’t a coward to begin with and nor will you be. Making a change is inevitable. Its beyond your control. You got nothing to lose except your precious time but its all in a good cause. Haven’t you learned already that stupid damn pride of yours wouldn’t get you the happiness you so long for. It’s time! it’s been long over due so let it go! You two can both play that game but in the end does it really matter? i guess not! You know from the start what you need to do so do it now before it was too late..Don’t think just act and let your marshmallow heart of yours do the guiding!

Tagged: nothing to lose

curse..could it be possibly true???

jen aka gorgeous b. — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 16:12:38 +0000

On my way home i had a weird conversation with the taxi driver. Actually it wasn’t weird at all its just he startled me. Out of nowhere he asked me Neng bakit parang ang lungkot mo yata??(why do i looked so sad??) im used being called ma’am or ms but never neng. I mean at my age who would have thought that im still a neneng..He probably thought im just 20 plus something lady so i guess i should take it as a compliment and be flattered about it or maybe that’s what he usually call his lady passenger “neng”. Then i remember saying di po and he suddenly reply ah gutom ka siguro noh? (maybe you’re hungry?) and when i told him No, i already had my dinner with my berks before going home medjo pagod lang (just tired that’s all). He asked me where do you work? and i told him at a construction firm and then we talk and talk and came up with the same conclusion that our government is famous for corruption and no matter where agency you are dealing with they’re all the same. You have to give them an advance money or more common as SOP before they tend to your needs or before they do any of your bidding. Its a sad reality but the fact remain the same that its a reality that most of us often face with especially if you often deal with government people and we couldn’t help it. Maybe because were a developing country and corruption is a common practice in a developing country like us or simply its really how our system works. The taxi driver who drove me home said he used to work in malacanang. He acknowledged the fact that its a kind of virus that is difficult to cure or remove. Were immune to it that we already think that its okay even if the truth is its really not okay!! We tolerate it cause we don’t know how to deal with it. How can you fight a system that can be bend. Like an air we breathe, an oasis in a desert that we couldn’t live without.Not an appropriate word to describe corruption but for those people in our government agency who live and breathe with it that’s exactly the word for it. Its their own private oasis. When and how it would stop? That i really don’t have an answer. All i know is it takes an extra ordinary man to change the system. You’re probably thinking what it’s got to do with my title post? Well before the driver interrupted my train of thought maybe im probably really looked sad that moment in time. Its because i was suddenly thinking of the curse or rather the family curse the demanding queen once told us during a family gathering that she believed that’s already happening and i was asking my self is there a possibility to it that it could be true?? is it really already happening..well there’s no use thinking about it.curse or no curse all i know is you make your own destiny in life and no amount of curse can ever change that..but what i do believed is karma and not on some kind of curse..:)

Tagged: curse..a mans vindication or animosity

easier said than done..

jen aka gorgeous b. — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 11:33:10 +0000

As a semtimental fool as i am and more often than not you could have easily persuade me to do more of your bidding if you just know which button to click. Im not as hard as you think i am. A simple smile could easily win me over or even a cup of coffee could do the trick especially in the morning. Im maybe difficult but not that difficult if you just tried even harder. I already wasted a lot of my time making demand for myself to be the perfect human being as possible and maybe it wasn’t worth it..not a single of it!! I wouldn’t dream of wasting another precious of my time thinking of what could have been or what it might been if my stupid pride didn’t get in the way. As the page of your book finally come to an end so does a great love story thats already been long finished before it even starts. But just so you know it isn’t too late to try and make it possible. Knowing that your heart were on the right track destiny simply couldn’t stand a chance..

Tagged: just do it

valentine’s day..another chick flick movie..=)

jen aka gorgeous b. — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 23:00:31 +0000

feel the magic of love again..

Another stellar hollywood ”A” lister will hit the big screen come february 12 next year. As i am doing my usual stuff checking the www for some latest buzz on my fave celebrity. It came to my attention that there was actually a new Julia Roberts movie with the title ”VALENTINE’S DAY” that will hit the big screen by february next year. I must admit im a closet Julia Roberts Fanatic hehe…

Ever since i watched her spectacular performance in ”Pretty Woman” by playing the role of a beautiful hooker name Vivian Ward co-staring the dashing hollywood gigolo Richard Gere as a rich ruthless business man name Edward Lewis who hires a prostitute as an escort and in the process falls madly in love with her. Kinda modern day cinderella finally finding her prince charming on the street of hollywood. And what about that famous ”NOTTING HILL” movie which she’s also been famous for. The world famous Anna Scott who falls inlove on an ordinary bookshop guy with an extra ordinary heart name William Thacker. From the street of hollywood boulevard up to the brit upscale notting hill love find its way..

And who would have forgot the famous Maggie Carpenter and Ike Graham and the famous running shoes in “RUNAWAY BRIDE” always a bride but somehow never made it on saying the word I DO. A country girl next door who doesn’t know what kind of eggs she likes. And then there was the famous Julianne Potter and Micheal Oneal and ofcourse the very famous gay George in the movie “MY BEST FRIEND’S WEDDING”. A woman who would stop at nothing just to stop her best friend from marrying someone else. And then there was George who would do everything that made her realized what true love is really all about. Last but not the least was the “ERIN BROCKOVICH” movie which i totally forgot what it is all about but never the less won her first Oscar Award for a female lead role. From the creator that brought you the famous ”PRETTY WOMAN” and ”RUNAWAY BRIDE” movies comes another Garry Marshall movie that im pretty sure that would definitely put your mood into valentine’s fever even if its only the month of november simply by watching the teaser trailer which i happen to saw in you tube. I checked the trailer and i was trilled that it got a whole bunch of famous celebrity on it ofcourse with no less than Julia Roberts itself.

I sure hope that the movie is way much better than the trailer.Okay so i been expecting alot on this movie since its been such a long time since i watched a julia roberts chick flicks movie..